Where I’ve Been

Soooooo, it’s been a while hasn’t it?

I’ve been off and on without any regularity since last year (thanks to a broken computer keyboard), then went to the US for the summer (where I bought a new computer), and yet I haven’t posted anything..!

Where have I been?

Well, to put it simply…I’ve been in my own head.  I don’t want to be a Debbie-Downer out here, but my struggle since last year has been real.  I think this ennui is something that every foreigner goes through (so says my husband), but I can’t seem to shake it!  I just don’t want to do anything anymore.  I don’t enjoy cooking like I did (hence the lack of recipe posts), I can’t be bothered to take pictures of my day (hence the lack of instagram posts), I don’t care enough to pick up art products or draw a picture…let alone write on my old blog.

There are so many things I could spill right now, but I have a feeling this space isn’t as anonymous as it once was- and some things are best left private while they are still in motion.

All I can say is, living in Turkey is hard guys.  Way harder than I anticipated.  I feel so silly for claiming that happiness is a choice, as I did when I first got here (and was generally happy).  When you are stuck in a mire with no feeling of moving forward, it can be hard to dig out a pebble of happiness.

Hopefully I will find more to write about soon.  If anyone can drop some questions/suggestions below to help me find a topic, that’d be great.  If I have any following left…!

#expatproblems

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2 thoughts on “Where I’ve Been

  1. I’m sorry you’re having such a rough time! I love Turkey, but it’s not always a walk in the park. I feel like it’s a constant love-hate relationship and it can be exhausting. The happiness and the discontent both come in waves.

  2. Hugs to you, my friend. And a whole lot of solidarity. (I’m not living in Turkey, obvs, but have long-standing struggles of my own that feel very similar to what you’re describing. And it sucks.)

    xox

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