Oh noooo! It’s back!
For those if you who aren’t familiar with Tmj, let me direct you to my old posts about my first diagnoses back in Florida almost 3 years ago (check out the tmj tag).
But for those who are, I had surgery for it while I was in Florida (athrocentesis) which didn’t perfectly fix the issue, but I was eating and speaking just fine.
Because of the stress of teaching (I’m sure many of you are familiar with that tightness in your forehead and jaw when you’re pissed) and overusing my jaw because of constantly yelling to be heard over the noise, my tmj is making a comeback.
So much so, I was in tears from pain and anxiety.
I don’t want to go through this again. I don’t want another surgery, I don’t want to go 2 months on a nearly liquid diet, and frankly, I can’t. Not in a job where my sole purpose is talking.
So as my jaw clicks and pops at almost every movement, I wait anxiously for the day it totally locks again.
And I’m not talking about the movie…
As of two days ago I’ve had a nasty battle with vertigo. If you aren’t familiar with that term- it refers to dizziness that is not associated with nausea or passing out. I’m talking about full tilt, world spinning on it’s ear, running into walls dizziness. It first started on Sunday afternoon when getting up from a nap. When I woke up the following day (yesterday) for suhoor I ran into a wall… we were afraid that this vertigo was from fasting and I chose to skip fasting on Monday and make it up along with my -lady time- fasting later. I went to the doctor today and they said I had a viral infection in my inner ear.
I guess the good side is that nothing else feels bad?
The doctor told me not to fast for a few days so that I can fight the virus before it gets worse. Lots of fluids and good eating were my prescription- but I am rather upset. I very much enjoy fasting and feel very in touch with my creator when I do it.
Fortunately the only way that fasting could have caused my dizziness is that my immune system dropped (as does everyone’s) when putting excess stress on your body. Fasting coupled with my Masters’ defense tomorrow was a stress cocktail that resulted in a viral infection…ick!
Fortunately the doctor said that after I have one full day of no dizziness I can return to my fast! YAY!
But I do want to stress that if anyone out there is feeling dizziness during their fast- they should seek medical help. There could be a blood pressure or blood sugar problem that has reared it’s head now that you or fasting…or you could have an infection due to a lowered immune system! Fasting is intended for our goodness and not to make us sick- so don’t be afraid to visit the doctor and take a few days off for your wellness. Surely Allah is the most Beneficent and Merciful indeed… and you can always enjoy reading Quran or listening to tafsir (lessons) to keep your iman and taqwa boosted during this blessed month.
I returned home from…home? Well, I went back to South Carolina to visit my family for a long weekend, and returned to my hubby yesterday. It was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO nice not having to stress about all of the complexities in our lives! I’ve been talking up Turkey to my family to make them less worried about my eventual move there- and I think they are starting to understand why I am looking forward to it :).
We are still dealing with that delicate situation I mentioned a month ago, so I am unable to divulge any details yet… and I will be working on my thesis and wrapping up my graduate work in the coming months. It will be slow goings here on When In Turkey until all of this work gets caught up…but inshallah I will have more comics coming soon 🙂