Trump Takes South Carolina

So it’s been a few days since Trump won the primaries in my home state of SC.  I would say I’m surprised, but I’m kind of not… But also am slightly.

You know?

I know about the SC stereotype…I mean come on, I lived there… And in some instances, it’s true. 

I’m talking about the redneck, xenophobic, bible thumping (but never actually reading),  Republican masses that show out in numbers at the most embarrassing events.  Of course,  not everyone is like this. I mean,  hello… I’m a South Carolinian too.  The majority of my friends are from SC as are many people I have communicated with on a daily basis and never had any back lash or discrimination from.  That’s not to say it doesn’t happen, but in my experience, SC is full of good people. Maybe a little misguided at times, but honestly good.

Not to say rednecks, Republicans,  and actual Bible reading Christians are inherently bad.  They aren’t.  But some are.  So just to be clear… You know.  Putting that on record.

So what’s up with Trump winning SC? What’s up with people I know,  people who know me (and I assume like me?) voting for this guy who wants me to wear a sign to proclaim that I’m Muslim (or is my scarf enough? I need details Trump!) and blaming people like my husband (foreigner AND muslim) for the problems of MY country? It kind of blows my mind.

I want to believe they are caught up in the thrill.  Of someone coming out of no where and using a shock and awe tactic to get their attention.  That they don’t really want me to be hassled on the street whenever I go home for a visit.  That they don’t want my family to never see their son in law again.  We southerners do love a rabble rouser, but let’s rouse the right rabble, shall we?

It’s not like I’m actually worried any of this guy’s bluster will come to fruition.  I mean,  most of it is unconstitutional anyway.  What disturbs me is that people support him.  People think like him.  People I know.  Maybe this whole time southern politeness kept them from saying what they really thought about me… But even if that’s the case, at least they were polite.

Come on SC, I’m disappointed in you. You can do better.


…and nothing else matters

the future?
the future?

Every day things look worse and worse for us here.  I really have no idea what we are going to do…and what will happen.  When you don’t know how it is going to end, it is hard to care about the assignments in front of you.  For instance, I have a paper due (the lit review of my masters thesis proposal) as a class assignment for one of my courses, at the end of this semester…but oh how hard it is to give two cares when I probably won’t see next semester.   At first I was partially excited to return to Turkey, imagining the days spent without any stress or concern, baking and watching TV all day with no end to the relaxation in sight…

But then there’s the money problem.

The stipend for PhD students is minimal at best, if you get any at all.  With uni being free in Turkey, the  stipend side is iffy.  Here, if you get an assistantship to pay tuition, more likely than not you get a stipend as well.  Not so in Turkey.

Also, if he decides, or comes to the point, where he will be working solely from his Master degree, he will receive a monthly pay (thats how they do it, a monthly rate instead of hourly) of approximately as much as the stipend he is receiving now to take his PhD in the US.  Two people living off the measily stipend of a student? Good luck with that.  Yes, Turkey is a much cheaper place to live…because many of the comforts we enjoy in the US are not as common place there.  I am quite certain I cannot work on a resident permit, let alone work without a grasp of Turkish.  This adds to my concerns.  It was hard enough starting over in a new state when we were able to drag everything we owned with us (pots, pans, linens, etc), let alone starting off in a new COUNTRY where all we have is what could fit in 4 suitcases!

This adds to the urgency of finishing up in the US. First, padding our savings with the stipend money that we try very hard to save could benefit us enormously when we move.  Second, the starting salary he would receive from finishing his PhD would be a good 1,000TL higher a MONTH.  Roughly, ofcourse.

We are trying our best to make it work here.  He does NOT want to go back to Turkey empty handed, and neither do I.  Clearly, staying in the US is the best option… if he can get his PhD.  If not, there is no chance of being able to get it after waiting even one year.  With military service looming overhead, he would not be able to finish a PhD in Turkey in time…the long term result being a minimal salary that couldn’t provide the lifestyle (or the family size) we had in mind.

He said already “Raziysan gel” (great song), and I agreed and came with him.  Regardless of our situation, I will be with him in the end.